"Don't fix it if it hasn't broken yet, don't regret it if it hasn't happened yet"

Hello everyone, sorry I have not been posting as much as I promised I would. Right now I'm stuck in this waiting stage; waiting to see if we will get the apartment, waiting to see if I'll be able to get into the classes I want to this summer, waiting to see if work will get enough hours. Once I have decisions made I am perfectly content, even if they are the wrong decisions, I am happy because whats done is done. Bur right now I'm just waiting to find out about my decisions, waiting to see what is going to happen and I hate that. It is the wait that makes me nervous. Like right before you get on a giant roller coaster, you are so excited when you first think about getting on and you love it afterwards but as you WAIT for hours in line you get all sorts of butterflies and knots in your stomach. This week will pretty much be the determining factor in the next year or two of my life, all the questions will be answered. I am so excited for this week, but also ready for it to be over.

In other news, why in the world do we have to take history classes? History is the only class that I am worried about not doing well in. I have to study and read for it constantly. There is so much work involved that I do just what I need to get by and than I forget everything. That isn't really learning is it? I used to like history until I got to the class I'm taking now. The teacher doesn't really teach...And I have a big test on Tuesday. Wish me luck.

Oh yeah, and the title for this post is a song by one of my favorite bands, Four Year Strong. If I ever get another tattoo I would probably get either "Don't fix it if it hasn't broken yet" or "don't regret it if it hasn't happened yet" tattooed on me somewhere. I try to fix everything, and sometimes in trying to fix things that aren't really broken I end up making them worse. If that makes sense

And finally, I promised that I would post random things I'm learning about apartments and saving money. At the moment I am trying to learn how to use coupons well. I work at CVS and I see people come in and by $100 worth of stuff and only pay $5 because of the coupons they use. Once I get it figured out, I'll let you know :)

Decisions

On Saturday I started my apartment hunt and found a place that I thought was really good and almost went ahead and put in the applications for it. Luckily, I decided to hold off and look at a few more places.

Today, I went around to look at three more places. The first place smelled like cat pee. The second place had police cars with sirens wailing driving by, a dog that looked like it could eat me and a slightly funky odor. The third place...Well that is where I'll be living. The people were wonderful and professional, the rooms looked great and did not smell, the rent is $25 cheaper than the place I looked at Saturday AND there is a swimming pool/fitness center/cyber cafe all included! I am SO excited. I went with some friends and looked around. About an hour after getting home I went back to give them my application. I didn't want to wait and risk losing my place. To further my excitement, everyone who turns in an application gets to spin a big wheel and get a prize...I got the jackpot! The lady who helped me didn't know what that was so she is going to call me tomorrow to let me know what my winnings are. Tune in tomorrow to find out ;-)

I am ridiculously excited. I can't believe that things are really happening and I can't believe how lucky I am. By the end of the week I'll know if my application is approved and by the first week in April I'll know for sure which style of apartment I'll be in.

Things are finally looking up for me and I couldn't be more excited. Now I am really anxious to get started and to move all my stuff in and decorate! Now that I know for sure where I'll be living I'm going to start think up ways to decorate!

Apartment Hunting

Hello lovely bloggers!

I am having a wonderful day today. I had to work this morning, which was not so lovely but it is money and I am grateful to have a job during these hard economic times. I also got to talk to a few nice people. That is the nice thing about working in retail, sometimes you meet awesome people but other days you see people you want to punch.

Anyways, the wonderful part of the day was that I got to start hunting for my very first apartment! I was only able to go in and see one and I saw the outside of a few (that was enough to let me know I shouldn't live there) and there is one other I would like to see the inside of. I felt so smiley, looking in the rooms and imagining how I will decorate. I am stressing out a little, trying to make a budget and everything but overall I am very excited!

Over the next couple months (late April or early May will be move in time!) I will be posting random things about decorating apartments, saving money, DIY projects etc. There is a lot of research I need to do about various topics and I would love to share any helpful hints I learn! Plus, blogging will provide any easy reference for me when it's time to put all my research to work :)

Is there anything regarding saving money or decorating that you would like to know but haven't had the time to research/learn yourself? I would be happy to help you out!

Being sad with the right people is better than being happy with the wrong ones

I woke up an hour late today, with only ten minutes until my first class of the day started. As I forced myself out of bed and sprinted to class (I made it only ten minutes late!) I was convinced that today would be a bad day; my hair was a mess, I felt sick from eating breakfast and running at the same time, I was sweating and runny nosed by the time I sat in my assigned seat. 


Luckily I was wrong.


At the end of that first class we got essays back that we wrote before spring break and I made an A! I really needed the good grade after doing not so great on our last test. It is an honors history class and I have been really struggling to keep up with the work load, but it looks like I might actually do well. 


After my second class I went to the main dining hall for lunch. With his wonderful timing, my boyfriend texted me right after I filled my plate telling me to meet him and some of our friends in one of the other dining areas. I considered eating on my own but decided to get a to-go box and headed over to the other area. I'm happy I did, because this is where the title of today's post comes in. Fortunately, none of us were sad, it was just good company and lots of laughs; something I, as the shy girl, have had some difficulty finding here at college. Spending time with three boys and being the only girl is always interesting. We discussed everything from why boys are so attracted to butts to traveling to China. Later in the day I had a short but nice talk with a good friend about relationships and love. I'm the kind of person who is really quiet but craves conversation and secret sharing. I hate holding things in or not getting to know other people as well as I would like and lately I have felt like I haven't been connecting to people as well or as much as I should. Today showed me though, that having a small but wonderful group of friends is much better than surrounding yourself by people who you can't really talk to or who don't appreciate and love you. Having good or just silly talks with people always puts me in a great mood, my supposedly bad day turned into a really nice day spent with some awesome people.

Rainy Days: 100 Words

Rolling over in bed and looking out the window, all I see is gray. The rain is splashing down in gray sheets, leaving dirty streaks everywhere it runs. I stumble into my rain boots that are not at all comfortable, but I learned long ago I would rather rubber shoes that a soaking wet foot. Walking to class I stop and furrow my brow at a suspicious looking puddle, who really knows how deep that thing is? I take a deep breath (just in case the puddle is really a pond) and splash across.  Just another rainy day; drowning smiles.

Growing Up

Tomorrow I have to go back to school and really it seems like I have never left. I didn't get to spend much time with my family or friends and spent most of my break doing homework. I also realized that next time I come back, this house will no longer be my home. By the end of the semester I will have my own apartment, my own address, my own bills to pay. As excited as I am to embark on this next chapter of my life, I'm not entirely sure if I'm ready. I absolutely love Tennessee and my school but I hate being so far away. I feel like I miss out on a lot of things. Now I'll be permanently settled 600 miles away and miss a lot more things. I'll spend my first holiday (Easter) away from home, I'll miss birthdays, I'll miss get togethers with friends, I'll miss family cook outs. I know this is the right choice of me but it is going to be really hard leaving tomorrow, knowing things will never be quite the same again.

Inked

Oh Yeah, And I got a tattoo over break <3

What does it mean to me?

The butterfly because:

Right before I left for college, I went with my mom to get a massage

On the waiting room table was a book 

The front of it read

"The Caterpillar though the world was coming to an end,

And then it became a butterfly".

I thought that was perfect timing and a nice saying.

Sometimes life sucks, sometimes it feels like it is falling apart.

But every broken moment is a new beginning.

The four leaf clover because:

My boyfriend can look at the ground and find a four leaf clover

He comes from a wealthy family

He doesn't have many worries.

Finding a clover isn't too exciting for him.

I sit for hours sifting through a patch of grass

Searching for a clover.

My family isn't rich.

I have had to work my ass off for everything.

When I find a clover,

it is the most exciting thing in the world.

This clover is a reminder that hard work pays off

That I may struggle more than most people

but in the end I'll be such more happier for it.

"The Healthiest Response to Life is Joy"

I have decided to get back into the habit of blogging. I miss it, I just got discouraged after seeing only two followers day after day. But the more I think about it, the more I realize I don't care. This blog is more of a chronicle of my life and thoughts than a blog to make everyone else happy. I hope that makes sense.

Anyways, life has been hectic lately. I have a really hard semester and basically all I ever do is homework or work-work. I have had no time to read, or go to the gym, or watch TV or even really listen to music. It is a little ridiculous. I am on Spring Break now and I have hardly relaxed. I've spent my days catching up on homework and sleep. I got to spend a few hours sitting in a group therapy for people with substance abuse problems. It was really interesting to see their views on the world and themselves. There was one man I found really intriguing. When asked what he thinks his best characteristic is he said kindness. He explained that he would rather hold kindness in his heart than anger, pain or frustration. I found that very inspiring, coming from a man who has obviously had some struggles in his life. Here I am, a pretty ordinary well cared for girl, and I probably carry more anger than kindness in my heart. I have decided that I need to be more positive, more loving and kind. I know I am a nice person, but I get frustrated too easily. I take my frustrations out in the wrong ways, on the wrong people.

In other news, when I get back to school I will officially be on the hunt for my very own apartment. I am definitely going to be living in Tennessee this summer and it looks like I will be living on my own. I am really nervous about this but also excited for the opportunity to go out of my comfort zone and meet new people. I really want to get involved on campus, in my jobs and in the community. I want to get out and do more and meet more people. I would like to spread love and kindness.

The problem is, all of this is so much easier to write than it is to do. Going out of my comfort zone isn't nearly as easy as it is to blog about. Do any of you have words of wisdom or advice?